There was a time when seeing myself as a survivor, made me feel good about myself!
But did I?
For one person to win, does another have to lose?
Growing up, our father used to grab my sister and I by the back of the neck, and force us to fight each other.
If we refused, he would beat the crap out of us.
In my mind, the decision was easy; fight my sister instead of feeling the wrath of our father...
I won every fight,
I believed I was the victor!
I got old enough to see what my victory had done to my sister.
Realizing she carried the emotional and physical scars that proved I was always the winner, started to have an adverse affect on me.
How could I be proud of who I am, when it also meant facing what I'd done to get here?
That's when the Impostor Syndrome started kicking my ass in a big way...
My Impostor Beliefs made me question everything:
✅Do I deserve to be happy?
✅Do I deserve to put the traumatic experiences of my childhood behind me and instead of allowing them to swallow me whole, start using them to heal myself and others?
✅Do I deserve to publish books about my journey as a way to heal myself and others?
✅Do I deserve to have an abundant life and lifestyle as I use my experiences to inspire, motivate and empower others?
✅Do I deserve to share My Story in a way that will continually remind me that, "it's not about what happened to me that matters, it's about what I do with what happened to me"?
✅Do I deserve to forgive myself for acting on the only knowledge I had at that time?
✅Do I deserve to shout to the world "I Love My Life"?
YOU BET YOUR ASS I DO!
When we overcome what others try to destroy; we create an inner strength so powerful, no person, place or experience can us tear down!
I know the power of getting out from under the belief that being victimized made me a victim.
People will inflict atrocities towards others to keep from looking at their own pain.
When we live our lives in victim and vengeance mode, our mind is never truly free. When our minds are not free, we continually tell ourselves "we aren’t good enough, smart enough, or talented enough" because what we’re actually doing is enforcing a belief that what happened, happened because we were too weak to prevent it; this makes us feel powerless.
Forgiveness begins within; forgiving our “SELF” for believing we have to stay in that mindset! This is the true power of forgiveness, this is the ability we all have, this is the inner strength that I am so passionate about teaching other women!
Whatever childhood experiences, memories and beliefs are holding you hostage; allowing them to have a hold over you is a choice.
When you're ready to break free of ANY limiting belief that the Impostor Syndrome is using to convince you of how "unworthy" you are...
When you're ready to say, "These self-sabotaging beliefs stop NOW"...
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Nancy Mueller ~ Life Coach & Sensei for Women